Where I'm At

Jesus Christ. Am I some sort of influencer or thought leader that others both really follow my words and hold me responsible to their idea of them? I got a comment a few days ago while I was out:

Why do you care so much about Paul? Religion is wrong and backwards. You are wasting your time.

How is it possible to read Settlers and then come crawling back to fucking Christianity? Revolutionary communism is what’s true. Don’t you want to be part of the real movement to abolish the present state of things? Are you going to learn how to overthrow capitalism-imperialism from Paul?

Please.

First of all, this fucking rules and it genuinely made my day. I agree with Semiurge on one hand that that’s some coelacanth type shit, but it’s so refreshing for someone to call me a proverbial opium addict. I’m grinning ear to ear. Love it! Anyway. I thought since I guess it fucking matters, I would give a general update on where I’m at with things.

Didn’t delete the blog. Just had an emotional crashout and became depressed for most of 2025. One part to do with political circumstances, another part to do with friends moving or them getting boyfriends or me being unable to travel as much (not like tourist style but like driving back and forth between where I work versus where my partner is currently at). What I decided was that I still needed an outlet to vomit my thoughts, and I’m most likely already on some sort of list anyway. Why worry now? That being said, please refrain from saying suss shit in my comments. I may be on a list, but I try to keep things legal on here. No one doing shit is discussing it on an open social or blogging platform. For that matter, I’m not doing illegal shit.

#DamascusMoment

As for the religion thing. I am an opium addict, I won’t deny it, but my investigations here aren’t motivated by trying to reflect my way into Heaven or something. I am a monotheist only in as much as I’m an atheist, and vice versa. Critique of religion as some naïve beliefs in unseen forces is equally naïve, because the basis of religion is not in belief but in praxis (i.e., social organization and ritual). When you talk like the tail wags the dog, you miss the point of analyzing the dog and why it wags its tail. Monotheism to me is an affirmation of there being no unseen forces: that when energy gave rise to physics, and from physics to chemistry, and from chemistry to life, and finally from life to conscience, that nothing has ever occurred out of step with the laws of nature undergirding Being itself.

If that all sounds rather Epicurean, it’s probably because it is! Here is where I meet Paul. Epicureanism is a philosophy of physics and ethics, but (though Lucretius at least applies this particular materialist framework to past history) it doesn’t go as far as to identify the individual as an “ensemble of social relations”: rather, the individual is empowered with free will on an atomic level (“the swerve”), through which they can choose to act ethically. Paul however sees not individuals but powers, principalities, and pneumas: and although there may be (for Paul as well as the Epicureans) actual ephemeral beings floating around somewhere in the cosmos, that is less important than that we as social subjects attribute our behaviors and values to forces outside of ourselves, thus giving them a virtual reality which imposes itself on individuals through aggregate social behavior.

What does Paul’s critical framework of idolatry offer Marxist critique? Like, okay, maybe it’s two thousand years early to the game, but that doesn’t mean it offers anything useful to our contemporary situation. The first is a realization I had while reading different books arguing about the start date for capitalism. Obviously, we’re not object-oriented ontology idiots, so it’s not very helpful to designate capitalism as a particular object, but I just mean how, when, and why pre-capitalist societies (perhaps particularly in Europe) transitioned. What I realized was, sure, we could slap a start date on the Dutch East India Company or even early modern Venice—especially given the role of mercantile networks in financing the earliest industrial factories to optimize what cottage industries they controlled prior—but history rhymes and the dynamics which gave rise to modern capitalism (e.g.: wealth, bondage, exploitation, violence) were endemic to social organizations as early as when hunter-gatherer populations managed their food stores over long periods of time rather than day by day and began coordinating outside of kin groups (leading directly to women exchange, trafficking, slavery, etc.). Our enemy is the same except that we once attributed social phenomena to specific forms rather than to underlying forces. Therefore liberalism, rather than liberating us from government or religion, set free their fundamental forces to act upon us unconstrained, while making them seem natural as such. This offers us a new way to read Marx’s inversion of Hegel: the Weltgeist is not Gxd but what Paul refers to as “the god of this world/eon” (conveniently translated literally as the Weltgeist or Zeitgeist), the system of symbols and social relations which we have imposed onto the Real, which as a real abstraction seems alien and external of us.

Also, fuck it, we need a better ethical framework than we have. For lack of bourgeois law, individual leftists seem to run with whatever seems right or pleasurable to them, resulting in all kinds of bullshit to which I’ve been witness. The PSL in particular, I’ve heard, has an infamous stink of protecting sex pests by weaponizing democratic centralism to suppress complaints of impropriety against local leaders. That’s not to mention the history of feds infiltrating organizations and dismantling them by pitting members against each other in simultaneously petty and violent ways (I think of Alex Rackley, whose comrades had been convinced by a fed that Rackley was the actual fed, thus deciding to torture and kill him). I’d like to see ‘the Left’ reflect on pro-social ethics more deeply.

What Is To Be Done?

Hell if I know. My beliefs are about the same as when I wrote the following excerpt in a tract a few years ago (except that I now identify the World Spirit as Satan, and the “real movement” as something else; lol; lmao).

We generally (and rightfully) regard First World Communist movements as pie-in-the-sky well-wishes ungrounded in reality. After all, the World Spirit is on the move in Palestine, India, and the Philippines where the temperature of destitution / destruction on the masses has boiled over into a real revolutionary scenario. We, however, live in Babylon. Although the USA is not without its social maladies—mass incarceration, police brutality, illegal abortion, forced deportation, violent transphobia / homophobia, hyperinflation, inaccessible healthcare, and epidemic poverty—the inhabitants of the First World are thoroughly alienated from each other through intense social atomization, and lack the same degree of apocalyptic urgency which spurred the truly wretched of the earth to action. Their movement is a matter of life or death. Our movement is a choice between relative comfort / stagnancy and self-inflicted difficulty to the point of death. Is our ‘suicide’, so to speak, revolutionary or reactionary?

Things have gotten… worse since then. Daddy’s home! History’s back! But I don’t know what to do under these circumstances except help the food bank. I have thought about what I thought was lacking in all the socialist political programs I’ve read, and wrote down what specific things I would like to see in a program (real la la la moments):

1. Cease occupation of all foreign land; withhold funding from military industrialists; and withdraw material support from violent satellite states such as Israel.

2. Disarm the police agencies that terrorize and enslave black people; abolish ICE, unmask its agents, and prosecute them for abducting and murdering innocents; and abolish incarceration for non-violent crime.

3. Cease the vast persecution of F-G-T individuals; legalize abortion in all scenarios; reaffirm individuals’ right to medical autonomy and privacy; integrate higher levels of education with labor; and provide childcare and parental leave to all.

4. Socialize healthcare, including hospitals and pharmaceutical manufacturers; disband all health insurance firms; dismantle the guild system behind medical education; and make medical treatments and procedures accessible to all.

5. Socialize transport, communications, water, and electricity; build railways to bring people closer together; and develop green energy to combat climate change, which imminently threatens the survival of our species and others.

6. Socialize industry and finance; expropriate property in land; develop self-sufficiency wherever possible on national, regional, or local levels; close gaps in accessing food, shelter, medicine, and education for disenfranchised populations; and redirect all of society’s efforts towards meeting these and other needs.

7. Abolish representational bodies of government; mobilize all citizens directly in local, regional, and national decision-making via open sortition; idk this one I added to be a freak and advocate for really crazy shit.

But, you know. I’m not in a position to really advocate for these things. Just for fun. Anyway. Please don't regard me as a thought leader or any of that shit. I'm not an expert. I'm a court jester.